mind over matter

I just hope just a small little part of you keep you going. Despite matter and matters that crumbled you, push you down to the lowest point. Just a right mind of you keeps you going. Just a right mind of you will bring you to realisation that all these sadness you had wasn't worth a tear. I am not influential, not at all. Things i said was always deemed bullshit. Whenever people tell me their problems and all i can always write a essay long of "preaching" to them. Till now none of my words had got into anyone. Absolutely no one. I hope just a word of mine can get into you, just a word of mine can change that state of mind you're in right now. I really don't know what to do cus im gone with the problems i used to had, that i can totally feel you and that time you couldn't understand. I used to keep everything to myself, burst it all on myself and blame it all on me. I learn to be stronger, positive and things that once pulled me down isn't a reason for me to fall again. It didn't take days, weeks not even months to learn to get to this point. It took years and years for me, Only thing that i can do is not to drown myself into thoughts that does not exist, thoughts that ran wild, and did not even happened. That was the thoughts that killed me inside. I can't bring back my old self, with feelings for things. I don't know if its good or not but that is what it is. I'm living up my life for myself, for people that cares.I hope you too. that thought of it will be gone, not now not months, it will take a few years. It's your choice if you want to drown yourself. I will always be here for you, said it so many times, really up to you to listen.