Tuesday 6 January 2015

Little clarity

Hello,

i myself know that no one really bothers to read this platform, only some, like my close friends.
But just wanna blog about how i feel recently.

" You seem unapproachable" " You always give out the don't talk to me vibe" " Why your face like that? so sad/angry"

my answers:

" Really? i mean if you ever talk to me i will reply for sure. " " I know, but you dont expect me to smile while walking along rightt?" " Thats my default rest face, i'm just not used to smiling while im walking alone or when i'm not talking."

Clarity:

Apparently i get all the comments about how i seem unapproachable, how i look like an anti-social freak that chooses friends A LOT.
I can't stress how much i am just like anyone else, i will reply you when you say hi, or should i say if you are a stranger and you ever say hi to me, i'll be like shock for a moment and reply hi back unless i feel that you're just making fun of me or smth.

Other than that, i just have to say that thats really just my face problem. Not that i don't like to smile, it's just i find no point in smiling while i'm walking? I mean who really smile to everyone including strangers? Some people have natural friendly face and even though they are not smiling they will still look as cute as hell. I'm just the unlucky one that has the "dao" ( unapproachable face)  look.

I might not have a lot of friends because what i've learned along the way is that, i really don't need so much friends that are fake as hell. Those that obviously hates me yet still act like they do, i really just need some true faces. No time to deal with bullshit, really.

Some of my new friends that i've made for the new sem was shocked, and i can tell you i came in the class with no friends for like, 2-3 weeks? i almost rely on my closer friends for those weeks and i feel bad because they need to make friends too. Till finally someone decided to talk to me in the class and they were really shock on how i act. I do make dirty comments time to time, i do joke around and disturb my friends, i do weird dumb actions.  Most of them were like, Wow Jolene, didnt know you are like this. Things that i appreciate, even though it's just a random statement.

Well, i guess people just love to judge. I myself judge as well, i can't blame.
I just hope some people out there will just ykno, understand people like me because i believe there are TONS of people out there has this problem ALL THE TIME.
I'm really normal guise, i am. trustme.