Well, this time i decided to blog just cus i'm bored and just right i need to rant(?)
Year 1 is finally over, all i could say is that it really didn't end on a good note. During exam period it was quite a devastating period for me, i would say.
And also found out who was there for me, even though i'm annoying them with rants and everything else during that period.
Tbh, it has been close to 2 years since i've that feeling. Just when i open my heart, just when i put my guard down, people decided to attack me.
Thats why i really hate to express my feelings to absolutely anyone. I felt so vulnerable.
I broke down so badly, people around me know that. I literally " stay high all the time to keep you off my mind ", it was the exam period and i swear towards the end my life had turned into a damn alchoholic life man. I admit i can't drink that much but it was towards my limits. But that seems like the only escape plan for me.
I told people around me, i'll be better soon. Till now i'm still not better, and seems like im still the only one suffering from this. Stupidity huh?
I'm always showing people the positive side of me after the rantings and negativity. I always bring myself to end it well, as a reminder to be better. Nope, i haven't done anything better yet.
I felt so helpless, i really don't know what to do, literally felt so empty.
And there you are, all better off with someone else..
